October Intentions and September Reflections

This October will be beautiful. I’ll make more time for me. I’ll embrace what’s changing. I’ll shine the light I’ve kept too dim. I’ll remember this October as when it all began.

Jennae Cecelia

Truthfully, I’m grateful September is over. It was a month that challenged me on many levels. And while I feel thankful for answers and a path forward, I am just so disappointed. If you read my September intentions, you’ll know that I was hoping for some clarity around my hip injury. The universe delivered, but definitely not with the news that I wanted. I tore some cartilage in my hip and I’m no longer running my marathon in December.

What I honestly didn’t realize was how regulating running became for me. As someone whose emotions are big, I needed it to help me process and think. I’d be lying if I said the last couple of months were a welcomed rest. I’ve been cranky, depressed and just generally feeling “off.” But October is looking brighter! With this new month, I’m buckling down on self care and learning about ways to regulate my feelings and pursue strength, rather than focusing on miles logged. And truthfully, I think both have a place in my running journey.

The leaves are changing color, the mornings are crisp and I’m once again reminded that great things come out of loss and disappointment. Trees lose all of their leaves, but they come back just as beautiful in the spring. I hope I can look back on this month and know that this is where it all started. I’m giving myself space to sit with my feelings. Create rituals that ground me. And push myself to go inward and reflect.

October is just the beginning.

Wishing you all a month of self care and rejuvenation. xoxo